
What do you do when you have to walk out of a code that just failed…and you’re still on call for 16 more hours?
You do not get to go home. You do not get a debrief circle with calming tea and a therapy dog. You get a pager, a to‑do list, and maybe five minutes in a supply closet to pull yourself together.
This is the part of residency nobody prepares you for: managing the rest of the shift after the worst thing just happened.
Let’s walk through what to do in real time. Not in theory. In a trauma bay at 2 a.m. When you still have orders to write, families to talk to, and a body that’s shaking from adrenaline.
Step 1: The First 10–15 Minutes After the Case
This window is critical. How you handle it determines whether you barely function or completely unravel for the rest of the night.
1. Buy yourself 5–10 minutes on purpose
You can almost always steal 5–10 minutes. People act like you cannot. You can.
Say something clear and short to your senior, attending, or charge nurse:
- “I need 5 minutes to regroup. I’ll be back on the floor right after.”
- “I’m going to step into the call room for 10 minutes, is that okay?”
- If you are the senior: “Team, take five. Hydrate, bathroom, then we’ll reconvene.”
Most decent attendings or seniors will say yes. If they don’t, that’s…information about your environment, but still: ask. You’re not asking for a spa weekend. You’re asking for 5 minutes to not collapse in front of the next patient.
2. Get out of the trauma space
Physically leave the room or bay.
Do not stay and “just help clean up” if you’re already shaking or dissociated. Leave that for people who are more emotionally steady at that moment.
Find:
- A call room
- A quiet hallway
- The stairwell that nobody uses
- Even the bathroom if you must
Shut the door. Sit down if you can.
3. Do one thing for your body
You probably feel wired, nauseous, or a bit floaty. Fine. You’re not going to fix it in 3 minutes. You’re just going to take the edge off enough to function.
Pick one of these:
- Drink water. Not a sip. Half or full cup.
- Slow your breathing: in for 4 seconds, hold for 4, out for 6–8. Do 5 rounds.
- Put your feet flat on the floor, hands on your thighs, name 5 things you can see, 4 you can feel, 3 you can hear. Grounding, not magic.
No, this is not “woo.” This is basic nervous system triage so your brain can actually process orders and doses again.
4. Label what just happened with real words
In your head, or quietly out loud:
- “That was a traumatic case.”
- “I just watched a kid die.”
- “We worked a code for 45 minutes and lost them.”
- “That was my first intra‑op death.”
Why? Because your brain will try to minimize or skip past it to keep going. Then it blindsides you later. Calling it what it is does two things:
- Validates that your reaction is not “weak,” it’s normal.
- Closes the loop enough so you can move into task mode without going completely numb.
If you feel tears coming and you have 2 minutes? Let them come. Put a timer on your phone for 2–3 minutes if you need to force an endpoint. Then literally say to yourself: “Okay. Box it for now. I’ll come back to this after shift.”
You are not ignoring it. You’re parking it.
Step 2: Re‑Engaging With Your Shift Without Falling Apart
Now the hard part: you stand up, open the door, and you’re still on call.
1. Clarify your immediate responsibilities
Your brain after a traumatic case is like a browser with 37 tabs open and a fan whirring. You need one clean list.
Before diving back in, ask your senior or charge nurse something like:
- “What are the top 3 things that need me in the next hour?”
- “Can you give me the immediate priorities so I don’t miss anything?”
Then write them down. Don’t rely on memory.
Example for an IM night float resident:
- Admit the sepsis patient in ED 12
- Check on the GI bleed in 4B
- Call the family of 5C for an update
That’s enough. You can’t emotionally multitask right now. You need a short queue.
2. Move like a professional, even if you feel like a wreck
You might feel like everyone can see you’re barely keeping it together. They usually can’t. What they’ll notice is if you start making obvious mistakes or acting erratic.
Behaviors that help you function:
- Speak a little slower than usual. Your mind is racing; your words will follow unless you deliberately slow down.
- Double‑check your orders. Especially meds and fluids. If you normally fly through CPOE, now is the moment to be boring and careful.
- Say, “Let me just verify that,” out loud before placing high‑risk orders. It buys you 10 extra seconds to think.
If the last case involved a med error, airway difficulty, or something where you feel personally at fault, you’re at higher risk of over‑ or under‑correcting. Force yourself to follow the protocol, not your guilt.
3. Protect the next critical task from your brain fog
If you’ve got another big thing coming (new trauma, OR case, rapid response), assume your performance will be slightly impaired unless you compensate.
So before that case:
- Ask your senior: “Can you be an extra set of eyes on this one? My head’s still a bit scrambled from earlier.”
- If you’re the senior, ask anesthesia, surgery, or another resident: “I had a rough case; would appreciate you being especially vocal if you see anything off.”
Some people avoid this because they think it exposes weakness. That’s nonsense. This is how pilots behave after an in‑flight scare: they verbalize and cross‑check more, not less.
Step 3: Dealing With Families and Staff Right After
This is where things get brutal: you’ve just been through a traumatic resuscitation and now you have to communicate.
1. If you just delivered bad news
You’ve likely already talked to the family. But you may need follow‑up questions, organ donation discussions, or paperwork.
Keep your language simple. This is not the time for clever metaphors. You are not auditioning for a grief counselor role.
Phrases that work, even when you’re spent:
- “I’m so sorry. We did everything we could, but their injuries were too severe for us to reverse.”
- “I wish we had better news. We tried X, Y, and Z, but their heart/lungs could not recover.”
- “I know this is unbearable. I’m going to step out, but I or someone on our team will come back to check on you soon.”
If you feel yourself starting to dissociate in the middle of a family conversation (tunnel vision, sound muffling, feeling like you’re “watching” yourself talk), wrap up as cleanly as you can and exit. You’re not helping anyone if you collapse right there.
2. Handling staff reactions
Nurses, techs, RTs — they were in that room with you. Some will crack jokes. Some will get quiet. Some will be angry you called the code too early or too late. You’re not responsible for processing everyone’s emotions right now.
You are responsible for not lashing out or disappearing.
Keep it short:
- “That was rough.”
- “Thanks for all your help in there.”
- “If you need anything from me about that case, page me later tonight.”
You’ll have time for a more thoughtful debrief later. Right now, your job is to stay basically functional and basically kind.
Step 4: Keeping Yourself From Melting Down at 3–4 a.m.
Most people white‑knuckle it until the workload slows…then crash. The danger zone is that 2–5 a.m. lull, when the adrenaline wears off and the images start replaying.
You need a plan for that, not vibes.
1. Plan a micro‑check‑in with yourself halfway through the shift
If you’re on 24‑hour call, that might be around hour 10–12. On night float, maybe around 2 a.m.
Set a silent alarm on your phone if you need to: “Check head.” When it goes off, ask yourself:
- Am I still safe to work? Or am I so flooded I’m missing basic stuff?
- Have I eaten anything with actual calories? Drank water?
- Is there someone I can say one honest sentence to?
If the answer to “safe to work” feels like “barely,” you must loop in your senior or attending. Not with drama. With facts.
“Dr. Smith, that last case really knocked me sideways. I’m managing but feeling off. Can you double‑check my admits for the next couple of hours?”
This is professional risk management, not weakness.
2. Use simple, mechanical routines to keep going
When your mind is spinning on the case, you need brainless structure.
For each new patient or task, follow the same pattern:
- Read last note or triage summary.
- Vitals. Always look at vitals.
- One‑sentence summary in your head: “This is X, Y old with Z.”
- Decide the next 1–2 actions only. Not the whole hospital course.
Checklist your way through the rest of the night. It gives your brain rails to run on.
3. Know the difference: “upset but functional” vs “not safe”
Let me be blunt: a lot of residents keep working when they absolutely should not. Because they don’t want to “make a scene.”
Some red flags you should not ignore:
- You can’t remember the last order you placed 2 minutes ago.
- You’re double‑charting or entering the same order twice in different forms.
- You start crying uncontrollably and can’t stop within 2–3 minutes.
- You feel a strong urge to drive away, walk out, or hurt yourself.
Those are not “toughen up” moments. Those are “I need backup now” moments.
The script can be:
- To your senior: “I’m not okay to keep working safely. I need to step away for a bit longer.”
- To the attending if you are the senior: “I’m at my limit after that case. I need you to redistribute some responsibilities or bring in backup.”
Will every attending handle this gracefully? No. Some will be dismissive. But patient safety beats their ego.
Step 5: After the Shift Ends (or Slows)
You survive the night. You hand off. You walk out of the hospital into daylight that feels wrong. Now what?
1. Don’t go straight to bed with it all banging around in your head
If you can spare 15–20 minutes before crashing, use it.
Options that actually help:
- Short walk around the block or from the parking garage before getting in the car.
- Sit in your car and voice‑record yourself describing what happened, how you feel. No polish. Just dump.
- Call or text one trusted person: “I had a bad case last night. I’m okay, just shaken. Can we talk later today?”
Then sleep. Your brain needs REM to process trauma. That’s not optional.
2. Do one small “normal life” thing when you wake up
After sleep, it’s tempting to doom scroll, replay the case, or bury it in Netflix. Instead, before that:
- Shower. Intentionally wash off the “hospital” feeling.
- Eat real food. Not just cereal from a box at 5 p.m.
- Step outside in daylight for 5 minutes. No headphones. Just light and air.
You’re not fixing your trauma with a sandwich and a shower. You’re signaling to your body: “We are not stuck in the trauma room anymore.”
Step 6: The Debrief — Formal, Informal, or DIY
In a perfect world, there’s a structured debrief with everyone who was in the room. Sometimes that happens. Often it doesn’t. You still need some kind of processing.
1. Try to spark at least a mini‑debrief
Back on service, you might say to your team:
- “That case was heavy. Do we have 10 minutes sometime today or tomorrow to discuss what happened and what we’re feeling?”
If you’re the senior, offer it:
- “I want to talk about last night’s trauma, both medically and emotionally. Let’s grab 10–15 minutes after rounds.”
Keep it short. Hit:
- What actually happened (timeline, major decisions).
- Anything that went medically well or poorly.
- Space for people to say, “That shook me,” without being mocked.
If your institution has critical incident stress debriefs and you actually liked them in the past, push for one. Many people don’t, but some do.
2. Do your own mental M&M
Blunt but necessary: if you think you made a mistake or missed something, ignoring it will chew you alive.
At some point after sleep, run through:
- Data you had
- Decisions you made
- What a reasonable clinician would have done
If you truly see an error:
- Talk to your senior, attending, or PD about it. Not in a confessional tone, but with curiosity: “Looking back, I wonder if I should have done X. How do you see it?”
- If there’s a reporting mechanism (M&M, safety report), use it if appropriate. Reporting is not self‑immolation. It is systemic learning.
And if you didn’t screw up but still feel guilty? That’s called being human. The brain confuses bad outcome with personal failure. Talking it through with someone more experienced is usually the only way to recalibrate.
3. Watch for signs this is sticking too hard
Normal: intrusive images for a few days, random waves of sadness, tearing up when you talk about it, trouble falling asleep for a bit.
Concerning: weeks of any of these—
- Avoiding certain rooms or cases that remind you of it
- Persistent nightmares
- Panic in similar clinical scenarios
- Numbing out in and out of work
- Serious irritability, snapping at everyone, or feeling “not like yourself”
- Thoughts like “everyone would be better off if I wasn’t here”
That is where you stop pretending and get real help: therapist, employee assistance program, mental health services through your hospital, or even your PCP.
Tools and Structures You Can Use Next Time
Let’s make this practical and repeatable. You’re going to have more traumatic cases. That’s not a prediction. It’s a guarantee.
A simple “Trauma Case Survival Script” you can lean on
Right after the case:
- “I need 5–10 minutes to regroup, then I’ll be back.”
- Leave the room. Drink water. Breathe. Ground.
- “That was a traumatic case. I’ll come back to this later.”
- “What are the top 3 things that need me in the next hour?” (ask senior/charge)
During the rest of shift:
- Slow your speech, double‑check orders.
- One‑sentence summary per task. Limit your horizon to the next 1–2 actions.
- If deteriorating: “I’m not okay to keep working safely. I need backup for the next bit.”
After shift:
- 10–15 minutes to decompress before sleep: walk, voice note, brief text/call.
- Sleep.
- One normal life action when you wake up.
- Arrange at least one conversation about it in the next 24–72 hours.
Write that down somewhere you can access on call. Your future fried‑at‑3‑a.m. self will not remember this article.
Quick Look: What Changes Before vs After Traumatic Case
| Timeframe | Main Focus | Key Actions |
|---|---|---|
| Pre‑case | Clinical tasks | Follow normal workflow |
| 0–15 min after | Stabilize yourself | Step away, hydrate, ground, label |
| 1–3 hours after | Safe task execution | Short priority list, double‑check |
| End of shift | Transition + rest | Brief decompress, then sleep |
| Next 1–3 days | Process + learn | Debrief, mental M&M, seek support |
Visualizing the “After a Traumatic Case” Flow
| Step | Description |
|---|---|
| Step 1 | Traumatic case ends |
| Step 2 | Ask for 5 to 10 minutes |
| Step 3 | Leave room and ground |
| Step 4 | Label event as traumatic |
| Step 5 | Clarify top priorities |
| Step 6 | Resume tasks with extra checks |
| Step 7 | Continue shift with routines |
| Step 8 | Notify senior or attending |
| Step 9 | End of shift decompression |
| Step 10 | Sleep and basic self care |
| Step 11 | Debrief and review case |
| Step 12 | Still functional? |
Two Final Points You Need to Remember
- You are allowed to be affected by what you see. That doesn’t make you weak. It makes you a human doing an inhuman job.
- The goal is not to be unshakable. The goal is to be safe for patients and salvageable for yourself after the shift ends.
You will have more nights like this. If you build a concrete plan now — ask for 5 minutes, ground, shorten your task list, call for backup when needed, debrief after — you’ll get through them without losing yourself in the process.